2004-12-03T06:46:00.000+08:00

to jiaomei and grace, so far you two're the only people I've told about this new blog. this doesn't mean I'll be abandoning my livejournal, it merely means I'll have a new outlet for expression, one with a lot less privacy and a lot less expected of me. (: I've been searching really long for a space like this, cos sometimes my livejournal just can't accomodate entries that're too personal; entries that really do express my thoughts outrightly and obviously.

this blog'll be a whole lot more shallow, a whole lot more personal, a whole lot more angsty, but a whole lot more me. and that's something I'm thankful for, cos even if I'll start to ramble on about a whole lot of stupid things in here, somehow that's what I've been in search for all this while. so please put up with me, cos here's a more personal and sensitive side of me I'll be exploring. leave comments on the tagboard if you wish, I'd really like to hear more from you two. (:

2004-12-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

I don't want this to be a cliche, I never wanted it to be anything remotely similar to cheesy soap plots. but here the little voice in my head repeats itself, goes over and over disturbingly like a tape on nonstop playback and I just can't deny the fact that this is turning out a completely different way.

so you probably don't even know that I feel like this, and you probably don't know how hard it is to try to keep thoughts like these at bay, nor how confused I'm feeling right now cos I don't know if I've been receiving all these signals the way you expect me to. I don't know what I am to you, I don't know if you meant for your words to affect me like this, I don't know if you even feel the same way.

see? damn, this already does sound like a cliche.

asphyxiated